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I feel like such a loser. since I had to close my bank accounts and credit card because of the robbery I've had to pay for groceries with cash. not a problem, right? wrong. whenever i'm in line and someone only has cash on them and the items come out as more than they have, it usually takes them a long to to figure out what to return and i feel so bad for them because that must be REALLY EMBARRASSING. Although it doesn't bother me that I have to wait for them to figure out what to return, if it takes them a really long time then I start to get bothered. Well...I bought ten items and it came out to $39+! When I left I remembered that I had to add up roughly what i was buying because I had no other form of payment available besides the cash I had on me and when I got there I totally forgot. It didn't occur to me until I saw the total and I mean it is SO EXPENSIVE there. I could have bought the same items at Trader's and would have spent less than half that amount. I had $32.00 and change on me and first he just took away one thing and that brought it to $32.70 so he put that back and took away two different things which bought it to $35 something and then he asked what the $6.99 item was and I said it was that watermelon so he took that back and the bank called me yesterday and said they hadn't been able to close my accounts because there was a $9.95 charge (THEY SHOULD HAVE CLOSED IT LAST TUESDAY!!!) so I figured I would try my ATM card because the account might still be open but it wasn't and the cashier waived the $0.70 that I probably had in change but he just waived it which made me feel even worse even though there were people waiting. I FEEL LIKE SUCH A LOSER! It's obviously not that I don't have the money or the credit, it's that I had this robbery (which I mentioned to him, I was panicked, THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE) and I left there wanting to scream in frustration and embarrassment and I couldn't stop running it through my head. This is like one of those mistakes that my mother talks about, that I was bothered with her for because she kept going on and on and wanted approval about [her own mistake] but I don't tell my mother [or father] these things hardly ever because they make me feel worse even if that isn't their intension. I usually just tell my therapist and/or sister or after agonizing about it in my head for a few days I forget to tell either and it just goes away. I'm so embarrassed I want to crawl in a hole...
I've spent most of the day reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows which was slow moving all week, I just wasn't getting into it, too much going on. I have a hard time turning off the noise of the TV. I'm not fond of silence unless I'm at work or something, then I prefer it. Anyhow, I finally know what the "Deathly Hallows" refers to (I'm on page 519 of 759 pages). It's good. I don't think it will ever be my favorite for the lack of ... ACTION. There's a lot of arguing between Harry, Hermione & Ron in this book which gets old. There's also a lot of sitting and waiting and planning and deciding what to do next, where to go, etc. So far there's only one death that I wish hadn't happened, the others were characters I didn't care for. I don't know if more "good" people die but I sure hope not. I wish they had the house elves in the movies more. I love the other books where Dobby brings Harry a present and Hermione (?) or someone knits him hats (?) or something and he wears them all at once. lol I think I remember that happening. I loved Dobby in the second movie.
My parents both have their new computers and my mother's replaced some of her jewelry but I haven't been in the mood to think about replacing my Samsung. It's all very depressing and makes me a little paranoid. I wish my dad had just bought it at Circuit City last night but they told him they don't carry it in the store. Well, I guess I'll go back to reading. Hopefully I'll forget about my grocery store experience before I have to go back, although I could stall that by shopping at CVS, Trader Joe's in Pasadena, Trader Joe's in La Canada, and Vons (although I hate Vons). *sigh* I hate life.
minute made frozen lemonade (1)
trader's caesar (all the dressing)
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0.84lb watermelon
smartwater (33.8 fl oz)
when my sister left for lunch today i was alone at the office and i totally freaked out. i called my dad who told me to come home but i called my sister and she was on her way back. i was in tears by this point and called my therapist who said she was expecting to get a call from me every day this week because of everything yesterday. i had already taken a klonopin when my sister first left but i was shaking really bad so when my sister got back i hung up with my therapist and took another half a klonopin. it's sort of a subconscious fear too because i wasn't feeling unsafe at the office and really had no reason to but it was all i could do to keep my head on straight. i had to leave at 5:00pm when my sister left because i was not going to be alone there again. when i'm at home, there's nothing to do because i don't have my computer and i can't just sit and watch TV. i don't know how people do it. i have to be doing something else while watching TV. i could turn it off and read harry potter but i can't focus if i hear other noises like my parents wandering about the house, the neighbors out in the yard, cars driving past, so i have to wait until everyone's gone to bed. i brought work home but that will prove difficult to complete. my lizard is dying to get out but i just want to crawl into bed. i don't want to run around with him especially since my parents are lying down in separate rooms, probably not sleeping but i prefer to stay in my room if i think they're trying to sleep.
I had some pasta (Lipton pasta sides-stroganoff) and surprisingly (!) i am totally done and i've had half to two-thirds of it rather than the whole thing. I'd love to measure how much is left because you know a guess just won't do but i have to wait until my father gets home and goes to bed. maybe i'll get a few pages of Harry Potter read before I go to bed. I think i'm calmed down enough that i won't need any klonopin (yay).
dryers frozen lemonade (1)
minute made soft frozen lemonade (2)
okay, my dad just called and he's on his way. i feel bad for my lizard because his light was off from 1:00pm to 6:00pm and although it's almost his bedtime, he's still up getting his filling of sun that he missed out on today. maybe i'll extend the light until he goes into his home. he needs light to digest and his belly's pretty big right now. i feel like i should watch him until he goes to bed but since my dad called, maybe i'll start harry potter at 10:00pm. there's nothing else to do since MY COMPUTER'S GONE! i want a coke but i don't have my debit/credit card or a regular credit card. i'd die for a pepsi. i've only had about 1oz. today due to the whole ordeal and with spending an hour at the bank closing my accounts, my last soda just sat in my car and got hot.
minute made soft frozen lemonade (2)
Yay my dad's home. i'm shaky though. i think i'll need some klonopin if i plan to sleep.
I don't think i can eat today. our house was robbed. they took four laptops, two flat screen TVs, my mother's iPod, two tennis bracelets and some other jewelry, my dad's .22. My new computer was taken. I've been shaking all day and my neck hurts. I have to keep remembering to loosen my neck muscles. My dad wasn't going to come home from Texas but I guess my mother convinced him. My mother's been driving me nuts and has been the opposite of comfort. With my dad here, at least i know he's here. He's been to war, he owns an air rifle and a bb gun, he was injured in Vietnam. My mother has never broken a limb and when she cuts herself she's down for the count, and the thief often times returns because they're familiar with the location of items and it's easy. I feel like someone has to be at the house (a car) so they won't try it again. the cops didn't give us much hope for getting any of our stuff back. you can't even say you suspect someone without having evidence against them or supposedly they can sue you (or so says my sister). it's scary. I have this continuous headache, mostly from tension lately. my dad's plane lands at 8:33pm. I hope he stays home all week. They're coming back to get finger prints in a few days but until then there are things we can't touch, like the location of the stolen items.
dryers frozen lemonade (1)
my harry potter book came today and i was so excited but i just cannot think about reading it, as long as i've waited. i don't want to eat but i might get something just for something to do. i don't have an ATM/Debit card, credit card, or checks because i had to cancel my accounts so i can only get cash until my new Debit/Credit card comes in about a week. checks will take time too and i have to call asap to cancel my credit card. what a pain. i wish animals could talk, then we'd find the ass holes who did this.
I just got back from the grocery store and this BITCH bagger with a big FAT MOUTH was dicussing the ENDING of the new Harry Potter book. I'm SOOOOOO MAAAAAAD! I don't even have the book. I preordered it on Amazon and haven't gotten it yet. Everyone at Ralphs has already finished it and can't keept their mouths shut so they're sharing it with all the customers GOING THERE TO BUY IT. BIIIIITTTTCCCCCCHHHHH! I mean what kind of idiot does it take?
I also just got back from the new Harry Potter movie and it was AWSOME! Best movie yet, and Daniel Ratcliffe is actually getting really hot lol. It was a REALLY GOOD MOVIE and everyone should see it. They better make a movie for the last two books because that would just be so crappy if they stopped.
Okay my new rule...(I have these rules all the time and when I break them, I make a new one) only fat free foods, preferably liquids only except watermellon because it's practically all liquid and I just need that cold food when it's so hot like this. I can't wait for winter.I just can't get FAT out of my head and I'm dying. I'm just constantly unhappy and focused on my weight even though I have almost no control except NUMBER of calories is like how normal people eat and I'M NOT NORMAL! I CAN'T EAT THAT MUCH!
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which was slow moving all week, I just wasn't getting into it, too much going on. I have a hard time turning off the noise of the TV. I'm not fond of silence unless I'm at work or something, then I prefer it. Anyhow, I finally know what the "Deathly Hallows" refers to (I'm on page 519 of 759 pages). It's good. I don't think it will ever be my favorite for the lack of ... ACTION. There's a lot of arguing between Harry, Hermione & Ron in this book which gets old. There's also a lot of sitting and waiting and planning and deciding what to do next, where to go, etc. So far there's only one death that I wish hadn't happened, the others were characters I didn't care for. I don't know if more "good" people die but I sure hope not. I wish they had the house elves in the movies more. I love the other books where Dobby brings Harry a present and Hermione (?) or someone knits him hats (?) or something and he wears them all at once. lol I think I remember that happening. I loved Dobby in the second movie.