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Written by Diana, on 19-06-2007 02:05

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I'm watching A Beautiful Mind. It's weird. In graduate school, working on his doctorate, he's a very disturbed mind. When he fails, his disturbed mind falls apart. Five years later, he's confident, pulled together, and apparently he "never fails." How does he become another person in just five years? When a girl asks him to have dinner, from that point on, he's a disturbed mind again. I've seen it before, so I'm guessing that when they go on their first date, the two men we see looking at him are not real, the first sign of his schizophrenia.

I wanted to be a mathematician once. I had a lot of things I wanted to be but I loved math in school, even in college I still loved it.

I think to have a genious mind comes without exception, alongside mental illness. Too much of the mind is being used, this obviously allows for genious but the mind must only have a certain capacity, after which madness is the only result. Like while all that activity is going on in the brain, it's killing itself, or altering it in some way, damaging it. I assume John Nash had no family through his life? I'm confused about all the sneaking around. I'm remembering vaguely that the whole classified job thing was in his head but I can't remember. I'd like to fast foward to just see that part. I find this movie frustrating as all hell. It's like his whole life, this whole movie is fake. I mean can you imagine SEEING all this stuff that isn't reall but totally looks real? If someone told you it's not real, it just seems like you'd think they're lying and how else could you ever be convinced otherwise? How do you even begin to think you're a spy and the russians could be after you?? I have a feeling his roommate and the roommate's niece are also all in his head. He's worked for the pentagon four times, that we know because his partner that he works with knows about it, but that was a one time thing. No wonder the guys at the pentagon didn't even remotely respond when he asked about the guy looking down on him from upstairs.

okay now I KNOW the roommate is not really there. That would be so scary, to be married to him, to hear him talking to someone who doesn't exist, to know he's slowly slipping into madness. And then he's not taking his medication so that he can do his math. It's kind of a creepy movie.

Okay I'm really hungery but I ate Starburst today. I REALLY WANT TO STOP EATING and the whole "diet" coke thing just isn't going to work. I hate the taste so much that all I want to do is eat now, instead of going for a soda to avoid eating when I'm having stupid cravings or am hungry but don't want to eat. I'm really hungry though and I have to get up at 7am (!) or in 4.25 hours. And okay, so A Beautiful Mind is great at the end when he takes control of his schizophrenia. It's pretty cool that it's a true story, it just seems like the genius in him is the only thing that allowed him to handle his schizophrenia like that but also a cause of his madness. "Normal" people it doesn't seem would be able to live with it like that. The version I have is from way back when it came out on DVD, it was like the first DVD I ever owned and the sound is really bad. The music is really loud and the talking is really quiet. Usually I have my TV at around 14-15 on the volume and rarely ever go above that, sometimes I even turn it doown because it seems louder than necessary, but I had to turn this movie up to 57 to hear the talking! That's how the first to Farscapes are, like Starburst edition 1.1 and maybe 1.2 as well. The background noises are really loud so you can barely hear them talking unless you turn it up which makes the noise REALLY loud. Okay, I've had enough of sad and "thought provoking" television. I watched "Kathy Griffin: My Life on the D List" earlier which was funny and then I watched the Dateline NBC with Princes William & Harry which was pretty good, but of course there was the "sad" of the whole Princess Diana thing and then I watched Jay Leno (I thought he stopped doing the Tonight Show...?) with Robin Williams and a woman, I can't remember her name but she has a show on E! I think and as of this episode of Leno, her show hadn't aired yet and I saw her show on E! quite a while ago. Anyhow, Robin Williams was very funny and then when this woman came on, oh it was Chelsey Handler (?? I think that's her name), they were very funny together too, they just totally fed on each other's jokes. Then some country singers came on so I just had to turn it off so I put on A Beautiful Mind which was boring, then weird and creepy, then sad to happy/sad. Cartoons please! ;-)

Last update: 19-06-2007 02:05

Written by Diana, on 18-06-2007 22:36

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COSTCO.COM SUCKS!!! I ordered the Q1 Ultra on 6/16 and on 6/17 I receive the following email:

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Dear Diana *******,

Thank you for your order with www.costco.com. Unfortunately,
the order you placed has been cancelled.

This cancellation occurred at your request, or due to some
type of informational error (such as an invalid address,
invalid credit card number, or some other incomplete or
incorrect data).

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you have not mis-keyed any of the following information:
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+ Incorrect credit card billing information
(It must be entered exactly as it is on your credit card
billing statements)

+ The credit card number originally entered on your order is
no longer valid.

+ Invalid city, state, zip code combination.


Costco may have attempted to contact you to verify this
information.

Otherwise, your credit card company may have declined to
process due to the following reasons:

+ You have exceeded a daily purchase limit set by your bank
Please contact your bank directly for further information.

+ Your bank needs to verify additional information with you
for security purposes. Please contact your bank directly for
further information.


Costco is unable to reinstate this order. To place a new order,
please return to www.costco.com

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HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO FIX THE ORDER IF THEY DON'T TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG WITH IT????? It's some bull-shit reason because I used the EXACT SAME information as I did last time I ordered except my credit card exipration dates have changed, which I updated correctly. I reviewed ALL OF MY INFORMATION and it's all correct, and my bank doesn't check or verify orders until AFTER they have been made and ONLY IF they appear fraudulent which there's no way this one would have. This is such bull shit!!!!! I hate Costco. The only possible difference is my credit card has one spelling of my street and because that spelling does not match the USPS standard for the street, costco automatically changed it to a different spelling which is not my fault, it's theirs and not in my control.

I re-ordered with PCNation.com, total $1323.58 which is like $1.60 more than Costco and I'll get it Wednesday (hopefully).

Last update: 18-06-2007 22:36

Written by Diana, on 18-06-2007 03:13

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I don't know what it is about Kathy Griffin but she is so funny. There aren't many things that make me laugh (and if you've heard me laugh at something else I was probably faking), but she totally makes me laugh. A lot of the time she's a bit too...dirty, but I can let that pass because she is funny. Obviously she makes fun of lots of actors I like but hollywood deserves it. Most of the people she makes fun of deserve it. And if they don't, well you can't really take her comedy act too seriously, after all it's her JOB.

I have such difficultly with food. Right now all I want is something sweet. I popsicle would do, like those skinny fruit flavored ones, or a soda (a non-DIET soda), some watermelon or strawberries a bag of straberry Gushers. But no, I hardly have food, much less something sweet. I have rosemary potato bread but I didn't want to add that many calories and I doubt it will do anything about this sweet craving. I have Diet Coke but I KNOW that won't help. I can't finish a can of Diet Coke, it's that bad. I have WARM Coke Zero but that's just gross. I also have a thinkThin bar but again, that's more calories and it really isn't that great. It doesn't do a whole lot for a sweet craving.

I want to sleep but I don't see my therapist in the morning so I can sleep in about three hours longer. If I were to go to bed now I could still get eight hours but I'm doing wash. I think I'll have bread, at least that's tasty and just has to be microwaved. I just feel like I'll never lose the weight I gained the past several months. I lost all willpower when it comes to food. I could have fruit and even CANDY and I'd still have a sweet craving. As much as I want to get used to diet soda, I just can't drink it enough. It's like force feeding myself whenever I open one. I'm out of water even, and the fact that I want it and don't have it makes me feel even more thirsty than I really am.

Last update: 26-06-2007 01:23

Written by Diana, on 16-06-2007 01:11

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 I bought a Coke Zero. It's weird. It's definitely not Coke Classic but I think it just might be better than Diet Coke (thank god). I can't decide if it's too weird though. It's not as refreshing as Diet Coke and although they're the same, the carbonation always seems differnt and the taste different when soda is in a plastic bottle as opposed to a can. Maybe Coke Zero in a can isn't as weird. It has quite a bit less sodium: 40mg/12 fl oz in Diet Coke where there's just 30mg/20 fl oz in Coke Zero.

I exercised with one of those large rubber bands today (they're more like RIBBONS). I have a feeling my arms and shoulders are going to be in a LOT of pain on Monday. I also used my Fuidity Bar (like a barre in ballet but PORTABLE) to practice with my pointe shoes. Just how professional dancers balance like that eludes me. Posture, strength, SKILL, I know that all comes into play but jeez. There are pointe shoes that practially have a rounded toe and that's just crazy to me, how they balance on them. Mine have a relatively flat toe but it's still really difficult. I definitely rely on that barre so I don't fall on my face lol. I have a relatively high pain threshold so I was able to practice for a while but my shoes aren't fitted perfectly so there's still probably a bit of unnecessary pain. My toes are taperd and the box is a bit wide for my foot so despite all the padding I've added to make them fit tighter, my foot still slides down and makes my big toe practically raw. I only have one piece of elastic on them right now, basically holding them on securely from the heel around my ankle. I find ribbons to be really uncomfortable. I wish I had that elastic ribbon instead. I ordered regular elastic (I'm using clear elastic now) because it's just more comfortable but it just takes so long to sew each side on and then it has to be just so. It's a pain. My new Bloche ballet slippers (which I LOVE) have one elastic of four sewn on one side (of EIGHT). it's such a pain. and you can't just sew them because you have to make sure your threads don't go through to the outside unless you want the threads showing which I really don't. the ballet slippers are like a white fabrick like glued or whatever to the inside of the leather shoe which means I have to avoid letting the thread go through the elastic and I don't want it to look "pulled" on the outside. I'm really having a problem with that on the satin pointe shoes. It's just really delicate. When I roll up into pointe the heel is the first part that I have to secure but then the bottom arche wants to roll OUTWARD rather than towards the arch in my foot so I have to secure the center as well. The shoes are really great but I think when I ordered them and did the fitting, they really didn't do as well as I thought they could have, being the manufacterer and all. I would definitely get a smaller box next time I order and if they have a better looking vamp, I'll opt for that too. I really like the vamps that are pointed but I don't think Gaynor Minden offers that. I have a pretty basic arch, nothing special so I'd like it to look better through a shorter vamp if they have one. I also wish they were more pink than peach but they don't offer a different color, except white which I don't want for everyday use.

Last update: 26-06-2007 00:22