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She did it again. Instead of saying she was sorry that I had so much work to do she continued to say that I had to figure out how to use the oxy library. I wanted to cut but I didn't have anything to do it with.
This time even meds couldn't keep my spirits up. I made this plan last Saturday to go see Ren today and take pictures before they pulled his main and shaved him because he looks so cute right now, but I got there and the farrier and the grooms and one border were there getting ready for the show next week. I only got to spend about five minutes with Ren and I was so sad when I got home that I went to sleep. I don't know why going out in public bothers me. Even being around family scares me to death sometimes. Though large crowds like Disney World didn't bother me in the least. School bothers me though I love being there and the stables never bother me. The only thing I can figure is if I think people are going to judge me, if they'll never be able to get to know ME, and if I'll possibly see them again then I worry about everything I do and say and how I look and act. When things get bad I find I resort to watching Profiler over and over, a few episodes in particular.
dizziness, a loss of strength
tripping over hatred's wake
thoughts so vacant, never come
gripping tightly Satan's thumb
heart so lonely, comfort lost
a mind that mimics Winter's frost
time forgotten happily
fears so dark are never free
cold and lonely feeling bare
nothing left but darkness there
hopelessness grips the mind
happiness i'll never find.
I've been so dizzy the past two days. It just hits me when I'm walking, or just sitting down not doing anything. What do I want to get out of this..I want to be able to talk to someone like I talk to Michelle, without being afraid of judgment. That's all I need. I need to be able to find this person, and learn how to talk to them, mainly just tell them about everything like I've been trying to with my friend.
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