| Written by Diana, on 23-09-2007 23:00 |
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I'll never buy from PCConnection.com again. We purchased a new computer from them for the office because it was a great deal and a week or two later we call and they said the order had been cancelled. We received no cancellation email, and when we went to their website it still said the computer was "In Stock". The second they realized they were out of stock the website should have been updated. It's ridiculous. Everyone's sold out of this computer and we just can't find another in that price range. Lenovo (IBM) is our only hope but prices are so low that computers just sell out crazy fast and companies never restock fast enough. I wish I could just assemble my own system. Unfortunately, I think I would miss a lot of necessary details. I was surprised though when shopping for a computer that it was really hard to find a computer with a 2.8+ GHz
Processor. All of our computers at the office have 2.8 and my server has 2.8 which works great.
I've been trying so hard not to eat. I get into the "pro-ana" thing on occasion but it's obviously not something I discuss. I just can't get that out of my head. I don't WANT to be at a so-called healthy weight, that's too heavy. Sometimes I don't have a choice, I can't stop eating, but at the same time I'm so disgusted by the way I look and feel. Even at my lowest point, I didn't want to eat, I just wanted to lose more. It's like the Wasted quote I always keep: "'Do you want to get well?' they'll ask. You'll shrug and look at the scale, wondering how off it is, whether it will lie and tell them you weigh three pounds more than you actually do. You will be obliged to correct it, on princple, to save your soul, and for your pains you will find yourself with a new address, Eating Disorders Unit, Eighth Floor, having confirmed their suspicions, because who, with a pulse of forty-three and a systolic pressure careening in vertical swoops, gives a flying fuck if the scale is three pounds off? An anoretic, that's who. Does she care if she's dying? Hell, no." You'll see it on my high school alumni page. I really have nothing to say to anyone..."who gives a flying fuck."
I'm starting to panic. There's no food or drink in the house besides water which doesn't help. I had the last soda earlier and no one else even has food. I meant to buy food after work but just never went.
Last update: 23-09-2007 23:00
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