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I met the double zero with fear and loathing |
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| Written by Diana, on 27-09-2007 08:26 |
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There's an erie glow coming in from outside. It's after 6am and I've turned down the brightness on my Q1 but it still feels like I'm peering into oncoming headlights in the dead of night. I locked the computer at 3:30am and was up again at 5:30, not my plan for the day. I feel a creeping exaustion behind my eye lids, that pain in my stomach that usually means I've swallowed too many caffeine pills on an empty stomach. An empty stomach, a mystery I have to solve if it takes the rest of my life. Full of what? I feel quite empty. There's an ominous feeling about the coming hours. What have I missed? Work was short yesterday. Shopping adventure with momsy. She had fun. I was reminded of the pain of numbers. I met the double zero with fear and loathing. I failed even to find the item I set out for. What happened to the cold? A few days and gone, sucked up and strangled by the summer heat creeping it's way in for a comeback. Even in the winter season it slithers in under the raidar, darkening a forever black christmas. White? Never heard of it. Pretty soon the winter may just relocate to another place and time, never to return. People today seem to lack social grace, that inner voice telling them to step down, not speak up. Even those who complain about the "class" of others, their "moxy," lack a general sense of class. The world is not an opinion column waiting to be filled. Next time you're window shopping on South Lake in Pasadena, stop by Anthropologie and flip through a copy of "The Fabulous Girl's Guide to Grace Under Pressure." It begs understanding. "Fabulous" in the Jacqueline Kennedy Onasis ideal, grace and poise, but full of strength and a great amount of earned perfection. Juicy Couture is not for the fabulous, but for the wanna-be-fabulous rich girls of hollywood who live off their daddy's fortune, who don't understand hard work and sacrifice and the struggle for acceptance. The so-called fabulous girl bypasses drama for reality and trades pettiness for the big picture.
Last update: 27-09-2007 08:26
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