| Written by Diana, on 23-06-2006 22:59 |
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I'm trying to get my mother to let me work with her and my sister until I get a new job. I'm hoping hoping hoping that my interview goes well on Thursday and I "get the job" even though they're not paying me. However, between now and when I actually start making money where I can pay my bills might be a couple months so I'm enlisting my mother's help...because there's no other way unless I want to stay at the job I'm at. And I can't stand another day there not knowing if I'm staying or leaving. And dammit no one will just accept that I'm sick with the thought of going back there. They just kind of downplay it, it's not that bad, i'm just overreacting, being dramatic, and they walk away like they don't care, I'll have gotten over it by morning. Dammit I want to SCREAM!!! I'm totally panicking, I feel like I'll turn into a vegetable from the worry. My parents seem really bothered but...HUMOR ME! I'M FREAKING OUT! I need to give my therapist a ring tomorrow and get her opinion because I have to figure this out before I see her Monday morning, otherwise I might as well wait until after my interview. DAMMIT! I'm going to start pulling out my hair, there isn't even any good junk food to make me feel better. I have to buy new shoes for my interview. I'm not looking forward to that but hopefully I'll find a new pair of cute black [small] heels I can wear anywhere. I wish I could scream...but I'm not a loud person, so no one thinks I'm really that upset. I think I'll email my sister. Maybe she'll understand. Wow and guess what, the site counter's gone bananas again.
Last update: 23-06-2006 22:59
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