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| Written by Diana, on 28-02-2005 23:43 |
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I think I'm going to pass out...three caffeine pills and some grapes several hours ago isn't feeling too great. That guy this evening...He was at work late, probably trying to cover a job and I was there too, when he was clocking out to leave he noticed I was still there and said "how sweet, you waited for me" and I couldn't s smiling. He was joking but I totally was waiting for him...*grin* my wiredness caused me to speak to my mother this evening and I'm regretting it. I hate her knowing things, simple things like how my day went, what's been going on at work, whether I'm functioning or not. you know, the basics. Something to think about: "about.body.dysmorphic.disorder/At one time or another we all worry about our appearance, but when you wake up degrading your nose, hair, chest, WEIGHT, etc. and then continuing to have these thoughts all day, that's when there is a problem. Closely linked to other disorders and psychiatric conditions, Body Dysmorphic Disorder (termed shortly BDD) is a serious disorder that is growing fast. People that suffer from BDD not only dislike some aspect of how they look, they're preoccupied severely with it. Most get to the point where it is very hard to go outside or sit down comfortably, or go to work and talk to others, without thinking the self-degrading thoughts about their flaws. The thoughts soon over take the person's mind and it is all he/she can think about. The problem, though, is that all of these self-degrading thoughts about a perceived flaw are distorted. Many, many times the supposed flaw doesn't even exist, or an "imperfect" body part is blown entirely out of proportion. However, the person themselves cannot see that what they believe is distorted. Many hold the belief that they are seeing all of this, therefore it MUST be true. This is one of the main reasons that it is so hard for people on the 'outside' to try and convince even the most severely emaciated people with anorexia that they are not fat or failures - the people with anorexia and/or bulimia themselves literally cannot look in the mirror and see the same person that everyone else sees." You can read the rest here: HealthyPlace.com if you're interested. This is like someone explaining all the crazy obsessive thoughts that I never understood why I was the only one having! I never considered BDD as a name for them. It's nice to have a name for things, then you can go read about why and what and how to deal. It's like little bit of hope wrapped up in three tiny words. You can't get over something that doesn't exist. It's also hard to talk about when you're too worried you're the only one obsessing. Don't look at me like i'm crazy! It's real to me! is all that comes to mind. I'm insulted whenever doctors prescribe a so-called anti-psychotic, especially because of how it sounds. I always end up going off them though because they knock me out or cause some other really unpleasant side-effect. Good therapists realize that however unrealistic it is, it's real to you. Psychiatrists just think real or not, it's wrong, let's medicate it. That's my experience anyway. Even unexperienced "councelors" in group have looked at me like I'm a little off...but that's probably common. They're new at this *wink*
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