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pinch me, i probably won't feel it |
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| Written by Diana, on 25-01-2005 23:34 |
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Last night I was suicidally depressed, crying on the phone while my therapist talked. I would have done anything for the ability to think about something other than wanting to kill myself. Today I woke up completely numb. I'm suddenly wishing I felt SOMETHING, even if it was what I was feeling last night, but nothing. The food that I ate today, the things that made me cry last night, I don't feel anything right now. Pinch me, I probably won't feel it. I can't tell if I'm stuck in my head or if it shut down and kicked me out. Maybe now, when I can't feel anything, is a good time to open one of the books I bought last weekend. Maybe I won't get anything out of it but then maybe not being freaked out before opening the book will actually allow me to get through a page or two before I can't handle it anymore.
Last update: 25-01-2005 23:34
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