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skinny? oh I was too busy blacking out to notice |
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| Written by Diana, on 28-12-2004 11:57 |
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I'm not there yet, I can't see the bones in my legs. Unfortunately, if I go further I think I might be in for a bad time. Not that I'm in a great time now but I see how my food's being cut out. Quite easily in fact and almost completely. 7-14 low-fat rice cakes a day coupled with three hours on the bike isn't, even in my state, enough food to survive on. Weird things happen in my head. I'm sick right now, head cold from someone over Christmas but I think I wouldn't be much better off even without it. As good as exercise is for you, it's making me feel worse. Blowing my nose makes me dizzy as hell. Skinny? Oh I was too busy blacking out to notice. How can this be glorified by those selfish pro-ana people? Only those who feel lonely in their disease, who want a death mate, or who aren't sick enough to know how bad it is would actually cheer each other on. I've been there I know. And now I'm here and I know this too. It sucks. And now i don't think I can get back out. Anyhow, I ordered my camera which should arrive on my birthday of all days (a week from Thursday). I finally saved up over $2500 and got some added help from Christmas gifts. I also pre-ordered Marya Hornbacher's new book that's coming out February 2005, The Center of Winter. I ordered the following books as well: Nothing Left But Skin, Slim to None, Diary of an Anorexic Girl, and Life-Size. I don't know if they're any good but the people reviewing them on Amazon seemed to think they were okay. I've got a three day weekend for new years and I am going to sleep through as much of it as I can. I've got to shake this cold. I think I want the Legally Blonde 2 soundtrack. It's some great music. Avril Lavigne's on it. Well, I'm going to go find something else on this site to update. I'm sick of writing.
Last update: 28-12-2004 11:57
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