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| Written by Diana, on 06-11-2004 03:04 |
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in my job we have worksheets for each deposition a reporrter takes with all aspects of the case, law firm, etc. and exact charges to bill for. in my department we also have worksheet backs and invoices (as the job is initially billed to us; we then turn around and bill it to the client). i am at the last stage of the process. i proof the work that's come to me, code invoices to bill the client, and enter reporter commisssions. i am the only one in my department who does this. recently i've had to take on more responsibility and am starting to find myself holding my breath while i sift through the hundered-plus jobs on my desk. not untill all the worksheets are completely taken care of and my desk is clear do i feel like i can stop for a while and take a breath. since i get an average of 30 jobs a day, all with their own set of problems, i find it rare that i get to this point and i think i'm starting to suffocate from lack of oxygen. everyone gives their problems to me to fix, and asks me to cover when they're gone, and has me decide who is assigned what tasks (or risk taking them on myself), and relies on me to keep the department running as smoothly as possible at all times. all this while "conducting all formal training of new personel." of course i have no actual authority except a better understanding of the process, a stronger desire than anyone to make things better, and a no-nonsense attitude when it comes to work quality and employee performance that very few others have, as it is not much rewarded or even encouraged. i drive an hour each way, sometimes taking a three hour lunch to see my therapist, also an hour drive each way. i also have started riding my bike two hours a day from just one, sleeping six hours if i can find the time, and of course all the rudimentary activities required to subsist. i have long fits of depression intermingled with a stress induced, sleep deprived madness that allows me to forget my real problems for a while. i'm eating just enough to survive this circus but coupled with my excessive exercise i'm not sure how much of it actually counts anymore.
Last update: 06-11-2004 03:04
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