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what's in my head starts to become real |
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| Written by Diana, on 24-06-2003 22:47 |
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do you just get over things like rape? do you ever get over them? do the flashbacks become less frequent? the nightmares less intense? do memories become less painful? does touch ever become a good thing? all these things kind of ebb and flow in and out of my daily activities, my daily life. Everything slows down and fades away. What's in my head starts to become real. It starts to overshadow things that are real. What's real disappears and it's like everyone in my life, the passers-by, brief encounters, that guy walking down the street, they all know. They know that I'm weak, that I'm worthless, and broken. And then when the day passes by, when I'm home alone, blinds closed, I'm safe again, at least for a while, until I have go out again, until I have to sleep, let my mind wander, when i'm no longer in control. I didn't sleep for five years, and now, suddenly, I can't do it. Sleep is inevitable.
Last update: 24-06-2003 22:47
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