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my therapist called around 2:00pm and since I was online, she left a message on my machine and I got it about 30 minutes ago. I'm going to have to leave an hour early for my appointment just to avoid my mother. I guess i'll have to go hang out at school or go to the book store or something. ugh..it's going to be a very long day. my mother never e-mailed me back...i'm not sure if that's a good thing or not. either's she's really pissed or when I told her to let me have the last word, she actually decided to listen to me. I'm not sure if I should call my t and just leave a message on the machine so that if she calls while i'm gone tomorrow morning she won't be worried because i never called her. though i tend to sound like a fool on the phone...in my opinion. i think i'm entitled to some time to just be angry. i slept most of the day just trying to avoid thinking about this whole thing. i don't see the point in worrying over something i can't mend right away--or ever. i couldn't spend that time talking to anyone about it so why spend it worrying about it? i talked to a friend today who said her father read her diary and two years later, she says their relationship will never be the same. i'm starting to see this the same way. i'm thinking of burning all of my journals and other papers that have anything personal on them. i don't trust them anymore with anything of mine. i'm going to have to go through my entire room tomorrow and get rid of anything personal. this is worse than them sending me to the second opinion...twice. and taking my knife and calling my therapist and school without asking me first and my birthday and the bad thursday. i haven't eaten in two days...god i don't have a clue what i'm going to say to my t tomorrow. i guess all i can do is explain what happened and hope she realizes how i feel. i hate it when she gets that look on her face like everything i say means nothing to her. she said in her message that she hoped everything was okay. well...she better keep hoping. Last update: 04-10-2001 00:43
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