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so i went to ride today and my stupid trainer didn't tell the assistant trainer that i was coming to ride so he had someone else ride my horse. and on top of that, someone's coming to try him on Sunday. stupid me i told my assistant trainer that i was dying to get rid of him...what a lie. i haven't spoken to my mother since tuesday. now i'm having these dreams and i'm having trouble distinguishing them from reality. i've been sleeping the oddest hours. i usually stay up until about 4:00am shortly before my mother wakes up and i get out of bed about fifteen minutes after i'm sure she's left after lunch: either 1:00 or 2:00. the days when it's 2:00 are very long. i'm afraid since my father's out of town that my mother won't go to Santa Barbara next week. she usually goes up there to see him. i can't do this for another week straight, it's starting to take a toll on me. i'm not eating much at all...not like i would prefer otherwise it's just that i need to eat something, be it an apple or a rice cake and i can't do that. i'm sleeping in the morning while she's gone and when she's gone in the afternoon, i'm usually gone as well. then she's home all night and tonight she didn't go to bed until 11:00 and then it's too late to go get something to eat...or eat at all. we don't have any food in the house that i'm willing to eat and i haven't talked to my mother to tell her what to buy. i hate that my sister likes my parents so much because now i feel i can't tell her anything about what's going on. my parents haven't even seen my lizard outside his cage yet. and wednesday i had him out for several hours. i sort of hope this person buys my horse just so i can keep it from my parents. i want to hurt them so badly. like they've done to me. but guess what guys...i registered a new domain today. i'm just waiting for confirmation and activation and stuff. i'm really excited and this time i'm going to make sure no search engine will pick me up. i've already done that with my current site but i'm still afraid since it has the same domain that my parents will find it. i've even changed the names of my files so that their bookmarks and history won't work. at least not for the important pages. i changed all the names of my files that led to my journal and poetry as well as the actual journal and poetry pages. and as you can see i've made this journal a friends only journal. i've seen so many people this week who have told me that they're fat and ugly. then i see a picture and they look like models. i want to yell at them to get a grip. i found the perfect thing to get over cravings...i have these things to make Popsicles and i put orange juice in them and it usually works pretty good. though we used to have 12 and now i can only find 4. i have a craving for Tostitos scoops and dip. commercials are awful. my sister bought some new clothes yesterday and put them on to show me...i can't believe she thinks she looks good in them. she used to be so skinny, now she's getting closer and closer to looking like me. she's probably even wearing a five jean now. she went from a zero to a one to a three. maybe she should just start wearing my clothes. heh heh. Last update: 05-10-2001 23:55
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