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i just don't sleep anymore |
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| Written by Diana, on 24-11-2006 05:02 |
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I just don't sleep anymore. I don't know why it's such an issue. I used to eat too much and sleep anyhow, but now I eat anything (always more than 1000 cals though it seems) and I might get an hour of sleep. I'm eating, I'm taking my vitamins and meds, what's missing?
I'm pretty sure if I ate half as much I'd be able to convince myself to sleep. I just feel so fat these days, like there's nothing but fat on top of fat, at least how I see it. Even having today and tomorrow off I haven't slept. I have to be up at 9:30am to get ready for my therapy appointment but then I hope to come back, take a sleeping pill, like unisom or something, and sleep until whenever. I want a soda because my chest hurts and the cold feels good going down, even though water doesn't feel so good. I've been eating chips because I didn't have anything else to eat, no fruit or anything. I've been working on this site only because I can't get myself to go to bed and all that I can think of is how to keep my mind busy. I feel so incredibly fat...I just can't get over it. I feel worthless, and hopeless, and helpless to do anything to fix that. I just can't stop eating this time, I'm all out of my "pills."
Last update: 24-11-2006 05:02
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