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a ring of sites that suck |
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| Written by Diana, on 16-11-2001 07:15 |
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OMG there's like this whole ring of sites that suck. They should call it "Sites that Suck" because i'm not exaggerating here..they're really awful and they're all mysteriously linked to each other in one way or another. So...I know there's tons to say and I'm only here because I seem to have lost all ability to sleep normal hours. I'd like to be awake in time for yoga in...1.75hrs though I don't want my parents to know because I'll never hear the end of it. So anyhow, I have some points to make and some people to quote. I need to talk about something, it MUST be cleared up, but that's hopeless so if I can keep my mind occupied for just a little longer I think I'll be able to let it go--at least for the time being. I'd also like to sleep...or if not that then at least get a soda so I won't be in limbo, not sure if I'm tired...not sure if I'm awake. So here goes. I was reading new entries in a friend's site and I came across a rather disturbing paragraph, not only because it sounded like every other close-minded person i've ever talked to but also because he's a friend and the entry--due to my apparent lack of understanding--sounded thoughtless and uncaring. It went something like this: "I know there are people who like pain and fear...I still think these people are freaks" (though you'd have to read the whole thing to really get what he's talking about) and that really hurt me. I later confronted him with this and asked him to explain you know because it hurt me to hear this. He explained that he meant something else and although I totally believe him and hold no grudge, I still can't seem to get it off my mind. I think though that the whole conversation was disturbing and uncomfortable. I felt like a child though I wasn't the one making the big fuss. He said let's wipe the slate clean but...I'm not sure I can. Yesterday I could have but now I'm not so sure. It was just too weird and it went completely unresolved. I ended up saying he doesn't know me at all if he thought that and I kind of felt bad but it's true and I'm sick of him asking me if I know he isn't serious, it was really starting to dispel my trust in him. My assignment for the weekend: Try to laugh. I guess it's a good thing I'm not getting graded. I'm not sure what to do or think or say. I know I'm having thoughts of "avoidance" which will only hurt my recovery but spurring a wooden horse will only give me blisters.
Last update: 16-11-2001 07:15
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